To Ilona (19 September 1947)

Confidential - To share with no one

Dear Ilko, when ______ was here she told me she was engaged in writing

… For many bona fide person, freedom is very real in the English world, not excluding this country. Also we would start making new plans for permanent reunion, which would be all the more [237] urgent should we now turn out to agree less than before. My own conclusions which the world knows and respects, are unshakeable, {midee} {at} they are stranger than ever. Incidentally, in Toronto, I gather you might be able to continue on your academic research work. Also there is here the largest genuinely Hungarian groups in existence.

We have disagreed before, but as long as there is true mutual confidence between us, and you remain a truly independent person we need not to despair to cool deliberate mastery of life is the only thing that can save us. I see no other hope, I am convinced, there is none (nor do I really believe that are truly deserve to be saved on other terms). Of course, all such plans need time to mature. I [238] thought of such long term plans at once, but until I know your mind is stable and constant. I have not sufficient confidence to base prospects of future places on them. I need cool {sag}, I don't believe anybody but ourselves is able to judge of the true inner conclusions of life of you and me. In these depths even the purest heart, sharpened mind and was___ friend is a helpless {dilettante/deliberate}. Think well and love me. Love me and think well. I trust you.

The Dicki Grad

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